"Are you happy with your life right now?"
This question was last asked in a quiz I took just a moment ago in 'facebook'. I answered everything quickly except for the last question... I paused for a moment and thought really really hard.. Am I really happy with my life?
If the question was asked 2 weeks ago.. I would've answered "Yes" without any hesitation.. Back when there was no crisis in our family yet. But now, everything has changed and I'm confuse if I'm still happy with my life. Sometimes I ask myself.. is there still a reason for me to go on? There are times when it' hard to wake up in the morning.. that all I wanna do is sleep and dream of happy things. But even dreams are not happy anymore.
There are times I have to fake smiles in front of friends and classmates just to not let them see. Just so they would not pity on me.
But still, I have to go on, for my mom, my siblings and for myself. I have to show the world that I am someone!
I was about to answer "no"; but that moment when I paused just to answer the question, I thought of the person whom has always been by my side no matter how difficult I am to understand sometimes. When there I was standing in the rain waiting for a lightning to strike on me, he was there to hold me and take me back home.
I realized that there's still a reason for me to go on. There's still a reason for me to be happy. Though sometimes I can't find myself; I can't find where I belong.. I feel I'm a stronger someone in his arms. Then at that very moment when I remembered that I still have someone like Jessie... I answered "Yes".
This question was last asked in a quiz I took just a moment ago in 'facebook'. I answered everything quickly except for the last question... I paused for a moment and thought really really hard.. Am I really happy with my life?
If the question was asked 2 weeks ago.. I would've answered "Yes" without any hesitation.. Back when there was no crisis in our family yet. But now, everything has changed and I'm confuse if I'm still happy with my life. Sometimes I ask myself.. is there still a reason for me to go on? There are times when it' hard to wake up in the morning.. that all I wanna do is sleep and dream of happy things. But even dreams are not happy anymore.
There are times I have to fake smiles in front of friends and classmates just to not let them see. Just so they would not pity on me.
But still, I have to go on, for my mom, my siblings and for myself. I have to show the world that I am someone!
I was about to answer "no"; but that moment when I paused just to answer the question, I thought of the person whom has always been by my side no matter how difficult I am to understand sometimes. When there I was standing in the rain waiting for a lightning to strike on me, he was there to hold me and take me back home.
I realized that there's still a reason for me to go on. There's still a reason for me to be happy. Though sometimes I can't find myself; I can't find where I belong.. I feel I'm a stronger someone in his arms. Then at that very moment when I remembered that I still have someone like Jessie... I answered "Yes".
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