The Art of Letting Go

One minute it was perfect then the next thing you know he’s halfway out the door. People come and go in our lives. There are people who pass by, and there are people who stay. Though some people don’t stay for long, they make a great impact in our lives. They make you feel special today, and then leave you hanging the next day. Sometimes it’s hard to let go. However, no matter how you love the person, if he wants to be free then set him free. It’s heart breaking when you’re left hanging isn’t it? It’s like your life is crushing down into pieces and no one’s willing to fix it with you.



Now I understand how others feel about trust. You treat it so gently only to be broken by the people you love. You try to put the pieces back, but then it gets shattered again and again and again. Then you get tired and it seems like you don’t feel anything anymore. You’re numb… catatonic… apathetic. You want to cry but you could not cry anymore because there are no more tears left to shed off. No matter how you wanted to get things back to normal, they could not.

However, life goes on and you have to be strong. Burn all the pictures and start afresh. Broken heart becomes stronger every time it gets hurt. That’s what I’ve learned in life. Letting go is not so bad at all. I rather consider it as an art. ‘’ Time heals all’’ as they say. It’s too late to have regrets. Just take everything as a blessing. Though it seems like it’s not, there are reasons why these things are happening to you.

When Thomas Edison was asked about how he felt when he failed for hundreds of times while inventing the incandescent lamp, he said “I did not fail.. I just learned that those hundreds of ways cannot work.” Same as love, sometimes we think that some relationships that we go through are failures; but the truth is, we learn something from each one we go through. That is why you should not think negatively of others who have hurt you. Though sometimes you feel that you want to hate them, just let them be. Set them free! After all it’s not your loss… it’s theirs.

Missing A Quiz

There I was again... Late in the class as usual... and that time, I was not able to catch up with the 20-point quiz that my teacher in Neurological Disorders gave that morning. I was so disappointed at myself. I lost 15% of the total grade! Now, the highest I could get is 85!! Why was I always late?

At night, before I sleep, I'll always set my alarm 2 hours before the class so that I could prepare enough. However, whenever my alarm rings in the morning, it's like as if, my hands are automatically set to turn it off. ARGH!

Sometimes I wonder why am I usually like this? There are times that I become so lazy and irresponsible. There are times that I don't study before the examinations. A lot of things are going on inside my head: usually preoccupied by things which are not related to my future profession. Like arts, music, literature, etc. etc. I know I'm not like other students who fail; but I'm just lazy to study hard. Maybe because there's a crisis in our family right now and I really can't focus on important things in school. I can't find motivation... inspiration...reason for me to want the top.

That quiz I missed... is an added frustration in my life...

Change

“So no one told you life is going to be this way…” says the song before the show F.R.I.E.N.D.S. starts. Life is difficult and when you were born, you were not told by your parents that the outside world is going to be a very dangerous place to live. However, you still learned how to survive with your parent’s guidance and their shelter of love.

When you start to go on with your own, you find out that life is much more difficult outside the shelter which your mom and dad had built for you. But life goes on and on and on and you have to learn how to make sacrifices for your loved ones and even for yourself. You learn how to make tough decisions and it sometimes scares you to death to think of what your decisions’ results would be. Will it be for the better or for worse?

Then you grow up and get to choose your religion. You’ll learn that some people think that it is just a fabrication caused by struggles in life. You’ll ask yourself what is the truth and search for the answers.

You learn that struggles in life are just series of tests and you get to know God. You get to know that people are different and that people would pull you down sometimes. Then you learn how to get up and face the future.

You learn life after death and had to do good things to reach heaven. You learn about races, differences in religion, people’s perceptions and views. You grow in a natural way like a butterfly that comes out from its cocoon.

You learn to be idealistic and suddenly feel the urge to change the world. You want to change the world because you think that the life you are into right now is not very friendly for your children. But do you think you can change everyone’s life in just a snap of your fingers? Of course not!

Maybe you have to change yourself first in order to change your family. When your family changes, then maybe the community will change too. When your community changes, maybe it will inspire and change the country; and when your own country changes, maybe the whole world will change too.. and that will be the start of a great life, a great future for the next generation.

Yes or No to Happiness?

"Are you happy with your life right now?"

This question was last asked in a quiz I took just a moment ago in 'facebook'. I answered everything quickly except for the last question... I paused for a moment and thought really really hard.. Am I really happy with my life?

If the question was asked 2 weeks ago.. I would've answered "Yes" without any hesitation.. Back when there was no crisis in our family yet. But now, everything has changed and I'm confuse if I'm still happy with my life. Sometimes I ask myself.. is there still a reason for me to go on? There are times when it' hard to wake up in the morning.. that all I wanna do is sleep and dream of happy things. But even dreams are not happy anymore.

There are times I have to fake smiles in front of friends and classmates just to not let them see. Just so they would not pity on me.

But still, I have to go on, for my mom, my siblings and for myself. I have to show the world that I am someone!

I was about to answer "no"; but that moment when I paused just to answer the question, I thought of the person whom has always been by my side no matter how difficult I am to understand sometimes. When there I was standing in the rain waiting for a lightning to strike on me, he was there to hold me and take me back home.

I realized that there's still a reason for me to go on. There's still a reason for me to be happy. Though sometimes I can't find myself; I can't find where I belong.. I feel I'm a stronger someone in his arms. Then at that very moment when I remembered that I still have someone like Jessie... I answered "Yes".